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[fiia]

Happy February! It is the month of love, and I wish to help you ask your heart's desire to be your Valentine! In addition to the Kissing Booth being set in the library, I will be delivering valentines across the ship!

C'est magnifique, oui?

I can deliver a note, a flower, homemade chocolat, or a song.

If you are interested, you may sign up here! And do not worry, this is out of the goodness and kindness of my heart, so there is no fee!

Comments

[reidings]

What could go wrong?

[jaxsons]

God's only ever made hinged decisions.

[reidings]

I'll take your word for it.

Jameson
How was the rest of your day?

Jameson

[jaxsons]

[...] Pretty good, actually. Wonder if this morning's got something to do with it?

Jameson

[reidings]

I'm hoping this morning has to do something with it. And good, you deserve a good birthday, I like seeing you happy.

Jameson

[jaxsons]

It's not usually the first feeling that comes to mind, but today was nice.

Jameson

[reidings]

No, I know it's not. Especially today. But I'll take nice, that's an improvement.

Jameson

[jaxsons]

How the hell did we keep our hands off each other this long, anyway?

Jameson

[reidings]

I honestly don't know and I'm glad that we're not doing that anymore. It's much better this way.

Jameson

[jaxsons]

We are masters of self-restraint, because I've been flirting with you for years.

Jameson

[reidings]

You're aware I was also flirting with you for years? I just thought you were joke flirting.

Jameson

[jaxsons]

This is bringing us full circle back to talk of idiots. At least I'll admit it of myself.

Jameson

[reidings]

This is a different scenario. I'll admit that yes I might've been a little slow to realize what I was feeling for you wasn't all friendship.

Jameson

[jaxsons]

Well, thanks for kissing me. I might’ve dragged my feet for a while before getting around to it myself.

Jameson

[reidings]

Yeah? Were you second guessing yourself?

Jameson

[jaxsons]

I [.....] wanted to sort out if it was just sexual attraction or more than that. I dunno if you want that answer, so I can keep it to myself.

Jameson

[reidings]

I think that is a valid reason to hold off. [...] I would like to hear the answer if you're willing to share.

Jameson

[jaxsons]

I wanna preface this by saying I'm not expecting anything, really, especially if one or neither of us is ready for it.

[....] After I broke up with Rone, I tried to spread myself in different directions and it's worked out for the most part, but I think the truth of the matter is I like being in love. I miss being looked at like that, and having someone to share my life with. I wanted that with Paul, and I wanted that with Rone. Sometimes he still does things that make my heart flutter, and I miss that closeness with someone.

Maybe I spend so much energy flirting with you all, and you specifically, because I want that closeness again but I [....] don't know how to open myself up to it again, no matter how much it aches to want, you know? Paul died. Rone and I didn't work out. And I guess I'm afraid of putting myself out there with [.....] you because I've already convinced myself it'll burst into flame, before it even started.

[....] This is a real long-winded way of saying it's not just attraction for me, but I'm still sorting some shit out, and so if you'll [....] have me like this for a while longer while I do that, I'd like that. Does that make sense? Is that selfishly unreasonable, because you can tell me if it is.

Jameson

[reidings]

I appreciate your honesty and being willing to talk to me about all of this. Obviously, we've talked about some of it before but [...] in a different context at the time.

You've been through two long term relationships with difficult endings that I think would leave anyone uncertain about getting into another one, rightfully so. Even though my previous relationships haven't ended in quite the same way, it's still hard not to wonder if it didn't work out then why would it now. But I don't think that accounts for our ability to grow, change, and overcome that fear because we both deserve happiness.

It's not selfish of you to ask me that at all and I'll happily meet you where you're at right now. And I want you to know that you can trust your heart with me as corny as that sounds.

Jameson

[jaxsons]

I know I can, J. I figure there should be a boundary of some kind, but I don't know what it should be. Does that make this a situationship? Is that what the kids call it?

Jameson

[reidings]

A boundary like I can’t ask you to stay over every night?

I don’t think I’ve ever used the phrase situationship before, but if that’s what you want to call it then that works.

Jameson

[jaxsons]

That might be one. Not every night, at least. Weekend thing maybe?

We don't have to name it anything. It's just [....] you and me, figuring it out. And you definitely fucking me sometime soon, in case that was in question at all.

Jameson

[reidings]

I can settle for weekends. Anything else? We can always add to the list.

It wasn’t really, but I like hearing you say it. Is tomorrow too soon Soon would be good.

Jameson

[jaxsons]

We'll work on it as we go.

You planning on being busy tomorrow night?

Jameson

[reidings]

We can do that.

I wasn’t. Would you like me to pencil you in?