fbradshaw ‖ 001

[jinking]

So board games are all well and good — I ain't got a thing against 'em — but what this ship really needs is a way to play some honest to God competitive sports. And when I say competitive sports, I mean baseball. I'd settle for basketball in a pinch, but baseball's the great American pastime for a reason.

Might just be I’m getting to that stage where I'm starting to climb the walls from not being able to do much of anything. Not that Saldanha Bay was exactly a thrill ride, but at least you could stretch your legs without bumping into bulkheads.

Anyway. If any of y'all can figure out a way to play baseball in space, I'll owe you one so big it'll have interest on it.

Comments

ac.

[murphyy]

you were fine? you weren't even you.

ac.

[agyieus]

no. but it wasn't hard. [...] don't take this the wrong way but i think bobby needed me around a little more than you did.

ac.

[murphyy]

it's not about whether it was hard. you being you's the most important thing. makes my skin crawl thinking about how you were chipped.

i [...] i'm not gonna argue that. bobby's better off with someone to look to. but i b [...] you don't have anything to feel guilty about. took care of him best i could.

ac.

[agyieus]

i hate that it's still in my head. [...] but that's not on you, either. i knew what the risks were.

i know you did.

ac.

[murphyy]

i hate that it is too. [...] but even if shit gets fucked up again, i wouldn't let it stay fucked up.

if you could've been there, you would've. i get blaming yourself, i do it too sometimes, but just 'cause it didn't feel hard doesn't mean it wasn't the worst, you know?

ac.

[agyieus]

i don't need a pep talk. [...] i'll talk to him. soon.

ac.

[murphyy]

i’m peppy, can’t help it. […] i know you will, but it’s also okay to take a beat and work through your shit if you need to.

ac.

[agyieus]

nah, i'm good.

ac.

[murphyy]

good. […] just cause i didn’t need you the way bobby did doesn’t mean i didn’t. […] not in a guilt trippy way.

ac.

[agyieus]

did you feel like it was your job to take over for me?

ac.

[murphyy]

wouldn’t know how to do that. […] i did what i could, but that’s not what i mean. broke me a lil. needing someone doesn’t always mean needing them to do shit for you.