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cal dawson

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so the good news, ev and i got one of those big drone computers from xitang for the nerds to look at.

the bad news the hdroids were not happy about us scavenging the drones and attacked us.

yeah you read that right. cool new feature.

dont get mad at me for being short. im writing with one hand here. (get your mind out of the gutter)

[Eren]
hey. got a minute?

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[...] i don't think they'll make me stay here much longer

Do not rub that in either.

Then what is your plan?

ara's got whisky?

That is not a plan.

my plan is doing whatever ren wants me to do

And you think what that is entails drinking yourself into a stupor and feeling sorry for yourself?

where did i say i was going to do that?

It’s a bit implied, Cal.

[…] I don’t even know what to say.

i'm going to have a couple drinks and stay out of her way. if she wants to talk, i'll talk. but i don't think she wants that right now.

you don't have to. i'm sure i've said whatever you're thinking to myself before

No. It was an awful call to abstain from telling her for this long.

I can’t imagine how unsafe she must feel in some of the friendships she’s developed here~~, especially wi~~. I suppose I understand why you didn’t say anything to me.

I can only guess how hard you have been on yourself about it.

But dios, Cal. What were you thinking telling her when you were injured? She had to still take your condition into consideration rather than focusing on her own feelings.

i'm fine. she doesn't have to worry about my wrist

She is your wife, Cal. Is it so strange to think she cares about your wellbeing?

we're always going to be going to a mission, on a mission, coming back. there's never a right time

It's been six months. That is avoidant.

none of this makes me a good guy. i get it

I am not trying to make you feel worse. […] You are not a bad person. This is not an easy place to be lonely.

I know it is hard work; this makes it harder. You both need to decide what it is you want and if you can trust one another.

it is what i want. but it's in her court now

If you have any other transgressions to confess, you should admit them to her now. Do not make a fool of her again.

it was one time.

Any bad call in judgement at all, such as your proclivity for trying to swap tiles in Scrabble. It could indicate something dark.

~~i'm not~~ sure, alright

Alright.

I am sure Eren will cool off given time. I hope it works out.

thanks ev. i'm sorry if it puts you in a weird spot right now

I know you are.

eli knows, by the way

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