veilbreak | jstjames 03

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jstjames 03

Sorry about last night.

Heard someone broke the last egg, but I made some flax eggs if anyone wants the protein or wants to bake.

RONEN.

Can I talk to you about something? It's [.....] not unrelated to what apparently happened last night.

TEAM KAMCHATKA.

T-minus 48 hours. Make sure you've got stuff packed for an overnight, and remember to dress up: Russia's cold in February, thought it shouldn't be too bad on the coast.

Can y'all take inventory of everything you find on site? Lynfield and Weber, you take point on viable medical equipment and supplies. I'll see you in the C1 hangar at 8am, UTC+12 local time.

( ooc: this post will have talk of PTSD - you're forewarned!)

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I'm okay, Sef. Don't worry about me.

Everyone keeps lying to me and telling me they're fine when they clearly aren't.

I'm okay right now. [....] Most of the time it's nightmares, but sometimes it's night terrors. I apparently scream and thrash. Those dreams I don't remember, at least.

But you still have to be careful Jax. Your body can remember stuff even if your brain doesn't.

I know. I'm paying for it now, even though being Veiled through most of it wasn't a choice.

[...] Did you hear me? Are you okay?

No. I'm worried about my mamma and my life is weird.

You wanna talk about it, and/or come make subpar cornbread with me?

Well Fox's BROTHER showed up to the ship but he didn't even know he was Fox's brother and I didn't either and I told Fox I thought he was cute but it CLEARLY bothered him so I told him I changed my mind and I didn't think Bear was cute. Except now Fox is telling me he's actually TOTALLY okay with it if I want to kiss Bear except I think he's LYING for some reason. Which is FINE because I don't want to kiss Bear even though he is very handsome and nice to me and he spends a lot of time in the gym. But I've been thinking about it a LOT and I have other things I need to think about!!! ~~And DON'T ask me if I want to kiss Fox because at this point I DON'T EVEN KNOW!~~

That's a rough situation to be in. Why do you think Fox is lying?

Because we both agreed it'd be weird if I kissed his brother and all of a sudden later he was like "but actually if you want to kiss him go ahead it's totally cool with me".

I can see that being a little sus, yeah, especially as someone with a brother.

What is it that's going around in your head? You wondering how Fox really feels?

Yes. I think I'm just hung up on a few weeks ago when I asked if he wanted to kiss me and he said "not at this moment" instead of no. I need to stop being so weirdo.