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While I know there are many more pressing matters at hand, there's been a distinct problem I've noticed onboard in the most recent karaoke nights. I won’t name names, but I have noticed a lack of rhythm that can be rectified with a little practice. Luckily, I am here to help, and there is no singing required.

This Friday, I'll be hosting a group salsa class in the community room. You don't need to have danced before; all prior skills you need are the ability to count to eight and how to stand up straight.

All are welcome, though anyone who is judgmental towards others just learning will be asked to leave. I don't have patience for that, and it's supposed to be fun.

See you Friday at seven. Wear comfortable shoes.

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it’s a very small ship, foxworth. a you can make it up to me.

How can I make it up to you?

i haven’t decided. why don’t you tell me how you think you can?

Like. In a normal way or is sex back on the table?

in a normal way, foxworth.

[…]

i’m not interested in sleeping with boys who hurt my feelings. i prefer men who show proper appreciation. i’ve only seen evidence of the former.

I get it.

Do you [...] want to eat dinner with me sometime? I can bring you a tray.

sure. […] there is something that might help you make it up to me.

you could talk to me about the things you were so desperate to avoid thinking about that you wanted to fuck anyone.

[...]

I think the squad leaders think Apollo's a better pilot than me. And the thing is, I don't think they're wrong.

I feel a bit bad Bear doesn't remember me. It's not his fault, he has a fucked up chip. But [...] maybe it means I'm not memorable. And Sefi's probably going to end up liking him more than me, and so will everyone else. He's real tall and his arm's the size of my head, and he's real nice. He's like me but better in every way?

he's been here for five seconds. apollo isn't a better pilot than you. he's just [...] confident.

you're memorable, foxworth. you're his little brother. the damage the chip did isn't a reflection on you. [...] and yes, some people will end up liking bear more than you. but i doubt the list of people who do will include your best friend. or anyone else who knows you well. he's not better than you. similar, yes. better, no.

This all sounds really stupid now that I've written it up like that.

Is there anything that's been worrying you?

everyone gets insecure sometimes, foxworth. […] but it’s not based in truth. it’s just in your head.

of course there is.

Yeah. I know that rationally, but it's hard to remember.

Do you want to talk to me about it? Fair's fair, but I'd want to know anyway.

i know. i'm sorry to bear, but i'm confident that you're better. thoughtlessness aside.

i'll tell you, but only because i'm rather proud of you for actually fessing up to your own feelings. i'm a little worried that my parents will be shuttled off to romania. maybe they already have been. ~~i als~~ ~~there's~~ [...] i also have a friend back home that was implanted before the fall, but i don't remember if his was a 2005 chip ~~and~~. ~~it makes me want to s~~ [...] a lot of people will have been a 2005 chip, however, and [...] what will happen will happen. i can't do anything to change that. i can only wait to find out. ~~i also s~~ on the upside, that's been sufficiently distracting from the absolute blow to the ego i've taken recently. so.